| Jul. 18th, 2005 @ 11:31 pm Ok, I broke down and made one. |
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Current Mood: Philosophical
Current Music: nothing at the moment
I know, I've said that posting your journal on the internet was a bad substitute for a real conversation... and i still feel that way. But i also think i have a tendency to forget the things i should tell everyone to know me better...
Nobody ever has the exact same experiences and once we've had one we will never have it again in exactly the same way. So sharing is worthwhile to the extent that it helps us share and remember these experiences.
As i quickly approach the real world i start to notice that there are fewer and fewer familiar people on the road next to me, it seems that all the people i remember going in the same direction as i am had different destinations and turned off the path. This is a new idea for me since all through high school everyone was looking to get out, same with college, or so i thought. I now realize that everyone has their own goals and expectations out of life and now that they are steering toward them the crowd around me gets smaller. I've never claimed to know where i'm going, making it easy to want to follow people down the roads they have picked for themselves, though i know where i don't belong even if i don't know where i do. I sometimes feel like i'm wandering... but at least in a general direction... but since nobody is going the exact route i am and i may not see everyone this is my attempt at keeping up with everyone and myself.
I've been thinking a lot lately about how totally different my life feels from everyone else's... since right now I don't get to spend much time with anyone. So I made this to share the stuff I always forget with everyone and to remember the stuff i forget for myself.
I think this introduction ought to scare everyone off nicely, but i thought i would post my motivations and intentions first... hopefully the rest will not be so... deep
also a note on the mood... i've quickly decided that i feel many different ways about different things all at once... therefore don't take it as mood swings if every other post has a completely opposite mood attached to it. |
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Yeah....it's also a nice place for us to make fun of you for your feelings.
But really...an LJ isn't a substitute for a conversation....they work nicely as conversation starters in my experience actually.